Friday, October 19, 2007

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As much of a composition writer my sister is, but i can't help but agree with what she wrote in her blog.
"perhaps i have indeed formed a shield over my heart. who can break through the protective shell? it's not that i have been hurt too many times; i have been hurt no more times than the layman on the street. but i've been through many relationships, and it has kind of numbified me."

Numbed to feelings, many things.
You tell me everything you do has a reason, but things doesn't go through my mind before i do it.
Ask me to give you are reason for everything i do?
I give you empty words, words that are answers for the sake of answering.

I thank God for short term memory, you know why?
Because it helps you forget things you don't want to remember.
Though some things that once scarred your heart never fails to engulf your thoughts.

I am not afraid to admit. I seek for acceptance, i look for friends, in fact i need them to fill the empty hole in me.
I have low self-esteem. Facilitators say i have good presentation skills, its just a mask.
Try counting how many faces i have.

Went for cell group just now,
"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me"
It impacted me a lot, i am not one with any talents or strengths.
I know people are modest when it comes to saying some thing like that, but i know this portion of me well.
I trust my God that i would shine because of Him.
His strength is made perfect in my weaknesses.

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