Friday, June 29, 2007
fridayssss.
aahhh, i am tired and hungry.havent ate for more then 12hrs already, as if i am fasting.
any way, my church fast for 24 hours, it's about leaning on God's strength. :)
sorry for the pride, i am proud of my church, thats all.
another friday.
woke up early, went to school
restless.
thank God for my team mates, especially Johnson.
pure gratefulness ok, don't any how think.
rushed down from school for piano, after rushing through my RJ and stuff.
ok, i wrote rather short. i hope she would be nice.
any way, they should invent some electronic devices for score so we don't need to bring those heavy piano books along!
my shoulders is bloody aching now. ):
then after piano, rushed down AGAIN for cellgroup.
Ban chuan fetched me from Kovan mrt, apparently, the venue changed AGAIN.
i came out from the mrt and back in again just to cross over to the opposite bus stop.
you cant imagine how many times i scold whoever for not having the cellgroup at some place more accessible!!!! ~!@#$%
my whole cell was late because of me, because all of them was inside ban chuan's car.
when we reached, they were already having pre-cell prayer meeting.
any way, some one didn't let me have my time of rest after cell still!! 10 plus already you know!!
the only problem i have with you is you don't understand how your members feel!
don't you understand that i am not as strong as you think,i can't go back to what i was like before. i know the problems you are carrying is unbearable at times, thats why you confide in me. but confide in some one stronger, you are going to drive me away one day if you don't start listening to what i am saying!
i keep hearing this phrase, "There will always be changes"
okok, i get it ok.
again i say, i HATE REPETITION.
sorry baby, for throwing tantrums again.
you know me right..
sorry, grumpy me.
{ 11:58 PM
Thursday, June 28, 2007
bad week. ):
wth, i hate this week.Friday :
First, my parents were over at Korea.
so i went over jerry' place to stay, because my mother don't like it.
so i have to do it while she's not around.
so sunday night was a dreadful night with the fear of getting "caught" by her because she will call.
night over.
Monday :
the next day was even worse.
i lost my ezlink!!
its so troublesome to go and make!!
Wednesday :
i'm not the sway one, but still!
to cut the story short, Jerry almost got rob by childish Malays.
no offense to the mature and hard working Malays.
but sometimes, it is just difficult not to be racist.
then today..
argh.
early in the morning, i would miss the bus by a few inches!
" Where words fail, music speaks."
- Hans Christian Anderson
"Where there is an open mind, there will always be a frontier"
- Charles F. Kettering
{ 1:27 PM
Thursday, June 21, 2007
daffodil.
Unwholesome memories, should be treated like unwholesome food. It is better to purge them than to leave them within.
- Dialogues from "An Unpardonable Crime" by Andrew Taylor.
{ 9:01 PM
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
chrysanthemum.
ohhh weeee.Revelation of the day : Sometimes, its not someone's responsibility to make you feel pleased. you have expectations, so do others. do unto others what you want others to do unto you.
{ 8:20 PM
Monday, June 18, 2007
no pain, no gain.
my feet hurts!fifth lesson. its so funnn, but real confusing too.
God knows how many turnings there is still.
first day of a new term.
sleepy sleepy, but my class is good.
don't want to change!!!
When we challenge the unchallenged, the unknown, and the invisible then only can we expect to be creative, new, adventurous, bold and daring.
-Siddharth Elhence.
{ 10:28 PM
Thursday, June 14, 2007
shopping.
i love Harley Daivdson's clothes.if i have a chance to change my wardrobe, i probably would purchase most of my tops from there.
seriously. every time i walk in it, i always find a top i really like.
should i get this phone??
any comments?
The fields held onto the deep green of high summer. Weanlings danced over the pastures, long legs reaching for speed as they charged their own shadows. Mares, their bellies swollen with the foals they carried, cropped lazily.
-Irish Dreams by Nora Roberts.
{ 10:20 PM
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
what life?
just finished my third book in this two weeks, and i conclude that a book alters my mood after i am done with it.i laid on the bed, thinking.
as i breathe, i just felt that i am smelling this life.
this life where all the activities are going on outside.
where every one always knew what they are going to do next.
i felt, like i don't belong to this place.
i want something more quiet, some place where i could just sit back and look at the sceneries whatsoever, a peaceful place.
yet, another part of me wants to be really busy, living a life with a full schedule. i don't need a time for break.
slow music makes me love, fast pace music makes me alive.
Sometimes, i think music is the only sanity left in the insane world.
-From Dialogues of "The Stars Shine Down" by Sidney Sheldon.
{ 11:15 PM
Sunday, June 10, 2007
just another day.
Have you ever had a day where every activity around you just get on your nerves?the noise, the way a person just sneeze and cough. the way a person just walk past you, the way he just stares at you, and you just feel like poking his eyes.
your own style in doing everything, walking, flagging for the bus..
the way a person react and just doesn't understand you, not knowing when is the right time to do the right thing just to make you feel pleased.
not that the person have to be perfect, but its just the feeling that it happened so many times, causing you to have so many doubts,
that just sometimes you can suppress it any more.
Revelation of the day : Many things done unintentionally, but yet was deemed wrong after reasoning.
{ 1:55 PM
Saturday, June 09, 2007
pop! goes the weasel!
did i mention that my hair was screwed the last entry?NOW, its really screwed.
what can i do but to berate myself for not telling the hairdresser properly which length to cut!!
i look like some p 5 kid a.k.a tomboy a.k.a punk but cannot punk. i just don't suit punk.
something is missing, wrong. i just cant point it out.
some body enlighten me please.
-who am i
that You will know me from the start
set my apart
who am i
that You would place eternity
into my heart
You have given to me
More then this world could give
my purpose is found
in You-
{ 10:37 AM
Monday, June 04, 2007
who am i?
ok, my obsession with books are getting bad.now Nicholas Sparks, and three other more books to go.
just watched the movie 'A walk to remember' again.
with the memory of the book - The Time Traveler's Wife,
i feel damn emo now.
i cant imagine losing darling.
that's just, painful.
i think hardly any guys would feel anything after watching a movie like that.
they say men are from Mars and women are from Venus.
whatever, many things you just cant explain.
any way, my hair is screwed.
i feel like going missing, to a place where no body can find me.
to a place with only the beach, a cottage with a porch facing the sea and just me.
no worries, no thoughts flying around, no more disappointments, no expectations in life, no nothing.
just poo-f, vanished.
when i feel i have lost God, i feel like i lost myself too.
Revelation of the day : To believe IN God is hard, to do His commandments is even harder.