Friday, October 05, 2007

baby.

"What if i get for you something, and you don't like it? What will you do?"
"Throw away lo".
What a fantastic boyfriend.

Sleepy sleepy, blogging cause my hair is still wet.
Was talking to Ah Hua just now. He KO already, i am going to KO too.
Been sleeping like 5 hours or less every day, how..

I keep asking myself this question, "What if i can never be happy again."

Million of thoughts go through everybody's mind each day.
But how many can tame it, giving birth to a new principle, a new knowledge in dealing with their life.
Many are engulfed by the emotions, the disappointments.

I despise regret,
i despise myself for being a girlfriend that cannot be trust,
i despise my inability to be adequate for my boyfriend,
i despise my inability to be strong,
i despise my inability to deal with things,
i despise my inability to break through,
i despise my inability to be understanding,
i despise my inability to chase after dreams,
i despise my inability to find strength in weakness,
i despise my inability follow God.

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